I’ve been known to go a bit overboard on Christmas decorations. Is a tree in every room overboard? Thought so.

When I was single, there was something about doing Christmas big that gave me a sense of purpose. I felt that if I decorated the most and baked the most and wrapped the most and…you get the idea…I could somehow prove that I was okay being single at the holidays. That I wasn’t lost just because I was alone.

The year I married Ryan, we came home from our honeymoon sixteen days before Christmas. I hadn’t put up a single decoration, because wedding planning trumped holiday decorating. I panicked. How could I decorate seven trees and shop for gifts and send out cards and…again, you get the idea.

That year, we had an abbreviated Christmas, at least where the decorations were concerned. A tree. Some ornaments. Stockings. A few more things that I just couldn’t bear to not have displayed.

And for the next two years, Christmas returned full force, with every hall decked.

This year, though I had more time in my schedule than I have ever had in my adult life, Christmas is small again. There was something in me that craved simplicity. We decorated one tree and parked it strategically between the two rooms we use the most. Each day as I work, I look at its twinkling white lights and the conglomeration of ornaments that tell the story of our marriage, and I smile.

I smile because it’s enough. I don’t need seven trees this year. I don’t need to prove anything to others or {probably more truthfully} to myself. This year isn’t about proving as much as it is about resting.

It’s been quite a year on our hearts. Not because anything devastating has overtaken us. {Why is it we only grant ourselves respite after devastation?} But it’s been a year. A surgery. A job change. Disappointing denials {or are they just delays?} to dreams we’ve dreamed. Much mystery about the future.

It’s not bad. Not at all. But it has been a lot to absorb. And so rather than sinking into an elaborate Christmas, I needed simple. I needed to sit, reflect, and appreciate simplicity.

It’s okay, you know, to be simple. Maybe your Christmas season hasn’t been that, and maybe now you’re too far in to all of it to put on the brakes. It’s okay. But Christmas isn’t the end. It’s the end of a year, certainly, but it can be a beautiful beginning of simplicity in the weeks to come.

Do you need that?


bekah headshotBekah Shaffer is a wife, writer, blogger, and lover of life and creativity. God has redeemed and restored the life that felt broken and useless, and she loves to share pieces of her story so others can find hope in what God has done. She’s married to Ryan, her answer to many years of prayers, and she loves to scrapbook, make memories, cook, write, and point others toward the Lord!
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Give yourself permission.