About three years ago, I was a wreck. What I thought should’ve been one of the most satisfying times of my life, wasn’t. I’d just become a professional bodybuilder. A goal I’d devoted myself to for three long years. During those three years, there were two things I thought about most. In fact, I was overly obsessed with ’em. My life. My thoughts. My days. My nights. They all consisted of these two things.

Something was wrong with me. I needed to make some changes; however, I wasn’t ready to let go. My Spirit and my flesh were battling it out! Around this time, I stumbled upon, or better stated, God directed my attention to, a post on Instagram from Revelation Wellness. I went to their website. I browsed their profile. I was drawn to their approach, using fitness as a tool to share the good, gospel message; however, I wasn’t ready to receive it. I brushed it off. That works for them. It wouldn’t work for me… Fitness was my way of manipulating my body to look good. What did that have to do with the gospel?

Months passed and the same two obsessions kept weighing me down. I couldn’t take it anymore. I was out of control. I literally felt as if I was going crazy. The way in which I was behaving wasn’t normal. Well, I take that back. Actually, considering the circumstances (not eating enough and exercising way too much), my behavior (binge eating) was normal; however, I wasn’t living in freedom.

The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life. John 10:10

If you’re like me, you’ve never considered yourself as the thief discussed in this scripture. However, I was (am) the thief. I was allowing my obsession with food and my body to steal, kill, and destroy my freedom, and essentially my joy. While the women of Revelation Wellness weren’t ripped and shredded, promoting six pack abs and hardcore workouts, they were all overflowing with joy. While joy was exactly what I desperately craved, I wasn’t excited to give up the body I’d worked so hard to attain. Hmmmm, joy or the “perfect” body? I was torn.

Whatever is obtained in the flesh, will require the flesh to sustain it. Whatever is obtained by the Spirit, our gracious Father will sustain.

I’d spent many, many years building this body of mine; however, my flesh was failing me. It was growing tired and weary. I knew I wouldn’t be able to maintain this level of fitness and food restriction for a lifetime. I let go. I surrendered. I must be honest with you. It’s an ongoing battle. Surrendering isn’t a one and done type deal. Each day, it’s a lying down of my cross and following The One. Choosing to do things His way. Not my own.

Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5

Apart from God we can do nothing; NO-THING. Yet knowing this, we still embark upon our wellness journey alone. We fail to include God in the process. Instead of seeking Him first. We turn to Google-god instead. You can continue to search the Google god for the latest and greatest weight loss plans but I guarantee none of ’em will produce lasting results. Jesus is the missing link.

The ministry, Revelation Wellness, was instrumental in my healing process. Particularly, The Wellness Revelation and RevWell TV. If you have struggled with your weight your entire life, never feeling at peace with your body, riding a roller coaster of emotions as you step on and off the scale, I encourage you to take advantage of all this ministry has to offer. God has definitely used this ministry to transform my life. I know He will do the same for you.

Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. Romans 12:2